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End of the line

So I went to my neurologist, and she said I was doing better. When she says that, I already knew she's going to give me more medication and she did. Now I have to take Lexapro on a trial basis. She mentioned it is the minimum amount. Something about increasing serotonin in the brain.

Well, she has no problem for me searching for work. If I decide to go back to school. At that point, I will deal with the math disability. No need to worry now because in the real world everybody uses calculators and computers for mathematical work in systems. As for disability, I can work, my seizures are under control. The myoclonic jerks and IBS-d, I have to live with.

What happens now? 2018 moving forward. That is simple, now I wait to die. No more plans, no more nothing. I will probably keep on reading books because that is really the only thing I am good at. Nothing else. Whatever I have not accomplished up to this point serves as a good indicator that most likely I won't accomplish anything in the future. Which basically falls in the line of what my father thought about me many years ago.

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  1. UnknownJanuary 2, 2018 at 11:24 PM

    well, bro, if you accomplish nothing, it means that you have done nothing bad.
    so, look at it that way. you have not killed, robbed or sexually attacked anyone.

    bully for you.
    hi to mama

    grampa len

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