Today, I had my doctor's appointment to discuss my seizure disorder with not just one, but two neurologists. While it was disheartening, they did take my heart issue into consideration and reevaluated the treatment plan for my other neurological problems. They concluded that, for now, the priority should be deferring treatment to the cardiologist, as addressing my heart problems is crucial. They assured me that my neurological issues can be managed through physical therapy, though that won't be happening immediately. So, the best course of action is to focus on fixing my heart issues and consider neurological treatment in the future. I'll be okay as long as I faithfully take my medications. The main neurologist made me feel better by emphasizing that my issues are genetic and not my fault.
I can't help but wonder about my family's long lives. My father lived to be 93, my mother passed away recently at 92, and my aunts on both sides lived to be between 90 and 100. Yet, I can't shake the feeling that my own life may be much shorter, probably in my late 60s or early 70s. But who knows? With the advancements in medical technology, anything can change. Lately, I find myself sleeping a lot, and I used to blame it on the medication. However, the doctor explained that it might be my heart causing the fatigue due to insufficient blood flow, which takes longer for me to recover from. It's tough, and sometimes I feel hopeless, but I must face the reality of my situation.
On the spiritual side, I'm going through a tough phase. I currently feel spiritually weak and stagnant, like I'm not making any progress. It's hard to find motivation to move forward when, statistically speaking, my outlook seems bleak. But who knows? Life can be unpredictable, and I try to hold on to hope despite the odds. Right now, I feel like I'm part of "The Walking Dead," but maybe, just maybe, things can change. I'll keep striving and see where life takes me.
Have a great day.
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