Approval?

 

One of the challenges I faced while growing up was the pressure to impress others with my behavior, particularly in demonstrating my commitment to serving God. It seemed that everything revolved around maintaining a certain image, and any hint of deviation from expected norms resulted in reproof, with phrases like "you're giving Jehovah a bad name" echoing in my ears. I suspect many of you may have experienced something similar, even if you're reluctant to admit it.

But here's the disappointing truth: we often go to great lengths to earn someone's approval, sacrificing our authenticity in the process. Looking back, it's almost as if we were temporarily possessed by a form of insanity. We found ourselves donning uncomfortable and ludicrous attire, altering our speech and behavior, eagerly awaiting validation through calls or texts. If we engaged in these actions out of genuine enjoyment, it would be one thing, but more often than not, it was simply a means to an end – a desperate attempt to garner approval, particularly from men who claimed to represent God.

These individuals held the power to determine whether we were deemed worthy of God's approval. Have you ever stopped to consider how absurd that sounds? It's a stark departure from the peace and security one would expect from a relationship with God. At this point in my life, I find myself disillusioned by this realization, feeling distant from the tranquility and assurance I once sought.